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hello, my darlings! once again i wonder how life has it’s little way of hindering your plans and intentions. i never intended to be absent from blogging or the site for the past few months, but like i said life has it’s own plans!

so much has happened lately! i’ve been so incredibly busy with college and work, i don’t even know where to start! in the last blog i had just informed you i had finally found a job as a server after months of being unemployed after getting fired at McDonald’s (best thing that ever happened, lol.) i absolutely hated serving, and i was fortunate enough to get a job with my cousin that is more like a desk job, (which i love, well parts of it anyways.) for a two week period there is was working both part time jobs and going to school full time, which was simply horrible! i feel sorry for anyone who has to do something like that all the time, i had no time to sleep or study or to even do homework!

i’ve also had a rocky road going on in the personal relationship department, which for awhile there really got to me, but the fantabulous news is, i have tackled my problems head on! i feel better than i have in over a year! like i’ve mentioned twice already, life, it certainly has it’s way of getting to you! these days, though i’m so much more like i used to be, which is a great thing. i feel like that little chip on my shoulder that everyone seems to get every now and then is simply gone. i’m so much more happy and content with everything.

being happy and content is a tricky feeling though, because if you’re like me you start to wonder how long will it last. how long will it be until you find yourself back in a bad position? don’t you just want to kick those thoughts right out of your head? i know i wish i could.

i have basically decided i pretty much hate college. haha. last semester my grades were not the best, i had more academic type classes then. for the first part of the semester i had all a’s, then i had to start working two jobs while going to school full time for a two week period, and since i had no time to study or do homework i fell way behind and never really caught up, but luckily for me somehow i passed!

this semester my classes are more like electives, including a class on photoshop and wait for it… web design. my teacher for those two classes (the same guy) has no idea what he’s doing. i have to contain myself from being over dramatic about how he ‘teaches’. he will literally sit there in silence for fifteen minutes while reading the book then ‘teach’ us something for five minutes and do it all over again. even the kids in the class who have not used photoshop or have designed a web page can tell he’s got no idea what he’s doing. it’s quite frustrating.

work on the other hand is great! i actually find myself looking forward to work these days! i mean the job isn’t super glamorous or anything, but my co-workers (most of them) are amazing. i have so much fun there sometimes it almost seems criminal.


in website news, i have added a gallery to the site which is where all the retouched photos, desktop wallpapers, and blends will be kept from now on. check it out here! ♥

hear you me, my friends.

hello again, my lovelies! lots of news to tell! first off i’ve turned rock & redbeard to a celebrity gossip site! i know i am a sucker for celebrity gossip, and maybe some of you are as well. i haven’t posted anything in a week or so, because i hadn’t had time to promote it, so hear i am promoting and (hopefully) you will check it out, so i can start gossiping again! haha.

in other news, after months of being jobless as some of you may know i have found a job! i’ll be a server, i’m sort of nervous about it, but what i really need is a fresh start. :)

don’t worry, i will still be making time for the sites. especially (if you all think it’s a good idea) updating the celebrity gossip daily at the least. i would like to say a special thank you to all my new affiliates, and since i’ve had such a great response i will keep the affiliate application open to everyone for a little while longer.

i think that is all for now. short and sweet.

up all night.

alright, so i’m totally re-doing this blog. i had something completely different wrote, but i found it completely boring and felt bad for anyone that felt the need to read it so this will be take 2!
 
first off, as you might be able to tell i have completely re-coded the site, it took me 36 hours. plus the four or five days before that i spent making the new layout, but i feel that it was well worth it, and i do hope you feel the same way! i feel bad for my best friend, lee, who was with me the whole 36 hours, i pretty much forced him to watch the vampire diaries, but don’t let him lie to you… he loves it!
 
it was even his idea to stay up the other night while i coded, i came to a point at about 4am that i decided we should go to bed, and he was like ‘i’m not tired.’, so he watched vampire diaries and i kept coding, until i looked at the clock and it said 7am then i was like ‘we really should at least get a couple hours of sleep.’, and he was like ‘nah, we should just stay up! i’m going to get in the shower.’ so he went and did his thing, and i kept doing mine. then i got in the shower like 45 minutes later, because i had to wait until the water heated back up because he uses up all the hot water, jerk. haha.
 
so about an hour after we each got our respective showers, this dork ends up falling asleep for at least three hours! after his whiny butt wanted to stay up and i wanted to sleep! so after he wakes up he realizes he was supposed to meet our buddy, mike, like half an hour before, then we debated what i was going to do, because i had two other friends trying to get me to hang out with them, and the fact i wasn’t even close to finishing my site at the time, but i ended up being the good friend who takes his car-less, license-less butt to play basketball and then later to hardee’s for food. would you like to know how he repaid me? he disappeared at 1am last night. yeah… sweet, right? i figured he went off to his bed (which is a couch, lmao.) because he had been falling asleep all day, and when i went out to check he had vanished, no doubt getting our friend, justin, to pick him up. lmao.
 
the funny thing is he was basically begging me to write a blog about him, and i guess he won again because this blog is basically about him. that dork.
 
i do have a lot of new content up, i took all the stuff from my other site rock & redbeard and moved it here, because in the next week or so rock & redbeard is becoming my next project, i have an idea that i hope works out, and that everyone thinks is pretty cool. we will have to see how it goes!

honestly, my honesty.

dear friends, so much has gone on since we’ve last talked. including bad news, my laptop charger has croaked and since i lost my job in january, i do not currently have $50 dollars to shell out. so all my updating will have to be done via my old pc. which is why i still haven’t finished one font a nice visitor asked me to do, and there’s been no updates. no matter how slow my pc is i do promise to suffer through it for new content, and as far as the font i was working on if i still have it in my email account i will try to do it from my pc. if not and you see this please email it to me again! and for anyone else who wants fonts done email them to me via the contact form on my fonts page, or simply upload it and leave the link here or on facebook!

anyways, besides the technical complications there has also been personal complications, but everything is pretty much resolved at the moment! also my friend seth opened up a new site for his graphic design! he’s pretty awesome, and we still haven’t finished the sight, but his portfolio is open so check it out! seth @ imagination digital.

tagged!
my dear friend summer tagged me, so let’s give this a shot.

one. | i am obsessed with twitter. tweet me! @ohjemb.
two. | i do read. my favorite author is emily giffin and has been forever.
three. | i think that the vampire diaries is far better than twilight, and twilight is far better than true blood. just an opinion.
four. | i have only beat one video game in my life, and that was mary-kate & ashley: magical mystery mall. haha.
five. | i could eat ranch grilled chicken wraps every day of the rest of my life, and be a happy girl.
six. | i’m a cat person. i currently have two. cabrera ryan cabrera & t.i. shemar dicaprio.
seven. | i’m obsessed with the scream movies, i can recite 1-3 word for word, and haven’t yet decided if i like 4.
eight. | my favorite color is tangerine.
nine. | i love making new site friends, and helping people so if you want a new friend, affy, or need help. talk to me!
ten. | i’m starting college in the fall to study early childhood development.
 
i tag: kayla, dylan, faye, tiff, manny, nicole, sakura, kenzie, ashley, & seth.

update: i still had the font saved in my emails. thank gosh i rarely clean out my inbox! it is now done! download it here!

roll the dice and have some faith.

acceptance is the first step for anything. no matter what your life throws at you, or how many times people knock you down, you have to accept what has happened. the past is the past and it cannot be changed. depending on how you view your future it’s either already set for you, or you choose the path you go down; either way things aren’t going to always go according to plan. you may expect one thing and get something completely different which can be a good thing or a bad thing.

when life gets to you and starts to break you down, take a step back and learn how to breathe through it. once you finally gain your composure, it’s a grand feeling. we all need to have a way to settle ourselves, a way to keep your mental and emotional health.

knowing what you want and what you need are completely different. you’re not always going to get what you want, but you will always get what you need one way or another.

as you can tell from my previous blogs, i’ve had a rough time lately. i’ve tried to take matters into my own hands to make my life better, and when that didn’t work i stopped trying so hard, and before i realized it good things were happening. i guess i have my best friend to thank indirectly, she started beauty school so now the time i was spending with her, i’ve been spending getting to know myself. which we all should get to do, because in the long run it helps with every problem that comes your way.

basically… all i’m saying is to keep your heads up, and have faith in yourself.

remember me. don’t forget me.

gotta love ben kweller!

so things are slowly starting to get better, nothing has changed, but i have had more time to sort through all my thoughts of everything that’s been going on. i’m trying to keep the site updated as much as humanly possible, so there should be lots more content randomly appearing soon. i am obsessed with this layout because, to me it reminds me of the old pastel smash days, i love that feeling.

so i just wanted to touch base on a couple of things, first of all i would like to admit, and am encouraging others to admit, that i’m obsessed with supernatural, i never got into the show until a couple of months ago, and now it’s the thing i look forward to monday-friday courtesy of tnt. (: if you are a supernatural superfan, who’s your favorite character. mine has to be sam, with dean followed very closely behind.

when i first started to watch it i thought dean was my favorite, until i had a dream about hanging out with sam and dean, but instead of throwing myself all over dean, i was totally infatuated with sam. lmao. speaking of dreams, i don’t know if any of you have experienced this before, but i would to mention that last night and quite frequently i have dreams that as cinderella would say are ‘a wish your heart makes, when you’re fast asleep’.

these dreams really must be coming directly from my heart, because they are so true to what my heart knows, and what it wishes. waking up after a dream like that is instantly depressing. to have everything you want and need so perfectly presenting itself in dreamland, waking up is like you lost it all in an instant, in some cases losing at all again first in reality, then in your subconscious.

if you would like to make me smile by commenting, say whatever you like, or talk about your supernatural obsession, or even your experiences in dreamland. thanks for reading. ♥

where do i go from here?

Without You | Dixie Chicks

this month has been one of the worst of my semi-short life. i have lost a lot recently, i lost my boy for reasons unbeknownst to me, i lost my job, now i’m worried about losing my new kitten T.I. like i lost Gucci, I was planning on taking him to the vet this week so i can get him checked out and know he’s healthy so i don’t spend all my time worrying about losing him, too. since i lost my job the other day, i can’t because i have no money, i’m already $20 short on my car payment this month, and i only have a half a tank of gas to take me where i need to go, such as job searching. not to mention T.I. needs cat litter and is going through his cat food like there’s no tomorrow. to add to my stress, my parents and friends are on my case about taking college classes this fall. so basically i am completely stuck, i have no idea where to go from this point. to make it worse i feel like there is no one i can talk to who will actually listen and support me, i have only found one person in my 19 years on this earth that did that, and it took me 18 1/2 years to find him. now he’s gone with little to no explanation, definitely not anything that makes any sense.

now i’m so completely stressed about everything i keep making myself nauseous everyday with worry, literally. nothing seems to go right, this new layout i hate it. even after i kept it off the site for days to make sure it’s what i wanted on the site, but it’s on now and i hate it. really, i do. the only thing that keeps me semi-sane throughout the day is putting all my attention into the site, and the occasional snuggle with T.I. music is helping me a lot, as well, but all these are only temporary fixes.

off that subject…
how do you feel about online dating sites? i know some people that are on them, i never really asked how well it’s working for them, but i know we all have the slightest opinion about them. i’m not talking about the online booty call websites, but the people that put themselves online because they want a relationship. i always thought that if i put myself on one, some serial killer would find me and chop me up into bits and pieces, but i look at some of the people at Wal-Mart and say that as well. haha.
what is your opinion?

and you sang sail to me, sail to me.

alright. it’s time for some major site changes. (:

first off, i brought back the dropdown navigation. we will see how long that lasts, as long as it works for everyone and you guys know how to navigate the site it might stay. secondly, i’m more than seriously considering dropping all my myspace stuff. layouts, contact tables, comment boxes and everything specific to myspace. i’ll keep the graphics. i don’t know what use all the layouts are sitting here on the site. it really upsets me everything myspace has done to itself over the past years. it went from truly being a good contester against facebook to trying too hard and finally slitting its own wrists to slowly watch it’s users fail to care about it anymore. it’s insane how hard myspace is trying, not even just that i logged on for old times’ sake yesterday and was astounded at how slow it was. it makes me sad to think of the summer days i spent many years ago learning how to code so i could make myspace layouts, and now here i am about to trash my hundreds of layouts because there is no point in re-learning myspace code AGAIN, because they’ll just change it as soon as you get it down, and no one cares anymore.

it appreciate feedback on deleting the myspace content, it’s a huge decision.

in other news, saturday, january 22, is the third anniversary of heath ledger’s death. a sad day. i’d like it if you all took some time out of that day to remember heath’s amazing cinema presence by simply watching one of his movies. you won’t regret it.

like heath ledger days on facebook!?
 
i created this page myself to try to spread the heath ledger love throughout the world. basically ever since heath died, i take two days out of the year to remember him by watching his movies, the day of his death, january 22, and the day of his birth, april 4. i’m simply trying to spread the idea out there to other heath fans. i know there are many of us. (:

& you can have whatever you like.

so my birthday was sunday. it wasn’t the best birthday ever, we got like six inches of snow and my party attendance was cut it half due to the weather. not fun. i got some awesome presents though. i got a new outfit, a marilyn monroe documentary, a set of frank sinatra movies from my momma, a scentsy buddy from my sister, and some money. (:
by far the best gift i got for my birthday, not just this year, but ever was a new kitten. the amazing boy i mentioned in my last blog made it happen. one of his family friends’ cats had kittens, so i got to go with him last a week ago to pick one out. they all were black and white like gucci mane was, and one looked so similar to her i had to fight back tears when i saw it. the boy and i caught all the kittens and i went to glance at them all to decide which one i wanted. i got the cutest chubbiest little boy kitten ever. i named him T.I. (:
he’s so adorable and sweet, and he has the cutest little goatee on his chin. completely adorable, right now he his attacking my keyboard so if you find some random letters and numbers or messed up words that’s just T.I. saying hi. (:

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okay, away we go.

hello, world.
it’s been a long time since i’ve updated the site, a lot has went on. i know it seems like an excuse that i have used many times before, and a generic excuse that every other website in the world has used countless times, and i can honestly admit that at times when i’ve used said excuse before, i was really just lazy. now, i can honestly say there’s been a lot going on. life happens, and it doesn’t give you a break to sort it all out, you just have to keep going.
i will dabble in a little bit of what’s been going on, first and foremost i met a guy, he’s wonderful. second, i’ve been working roughly 40 hour weeks at ‘the arches‘, mtv give our mcdonald’s a reality show and i guarantee watchers will never be bored. drama is all there is, there’s never a day that goes by where someone isn’t enticing an engaged man, yelling, bitching, gossiping, trying to get someone fired, and other such drama. it’s hell. i’ve been taking care of my best friend, lee, while his dad is sick, making sure the kid gets to work considering no one wants to take him, and he has no car or license. i’m his surrogate mother, i love that kid. (:
i’ve also been spending time with my best friend christina and her kids, they are beautiful, sweet and joyful, they make me want to pop out a couple of my own, haha. there’s been a tremendous amount of drama with my friends from work, one quit, one broke off his engagement because he fell in love with a manager who is old enough to be his mother, who has two kids, and an ex-husband she’s still in love with, but won’t admit it. there’s been suspensions, write-ups, a virgin losing her virginity to some guy who was gay and might have aids? still unclear on the details, but i really don’t want to know them anyway.
family wise, there’s always drama there, and with the holidays here it multiplies by a thousand. someone trying to trick a pregnancy on their significant other, seperation anxieties from loved ones, medical problems and such.

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