Archive for January, 2011

where do i go from here?

Sunday, January 23rd, 2011

Without You | Dixie Chicks

this month has been one of the worst of my semi-short life. i have lost a lot recently, i lost my boy for reasons unbeknownst to me, i lost my job, now i’m worried about losing my new kitten T.I. like i lost Gucci, I was planning on taking him to the vet this week so i can get him checked out and know he’s healthy so i don’t spend all my time worrying about losing him, too. since i lost my job the other day, i can’t because i have no money, i’m already $20 short on my car payment this month, and i only have a half a tank of gas to take me where i need to go, such as job searching. not to mention T.I. needs cat litter and is going through his cat food like there’s no tomorrow. to add to my stress, my parents and friends are on my case about taking college classes this fall. so basically i am completely stuck, i have no idea where to go from this point. to make it worse i feel like there is no one i can talk to who will actually listen and support me, i have only found one person in my 19 years on this earth that did that, and it took me 18 1/2 years to find him. now he’s gone with little to no explanation, definitely not anything that makes any sense.

now i’m so completely stressed about everything i keep making myself nauseous everyday with worry, literally. nothing seems to go right, this new layout i hate it. even after i kept it off the site for days to make sure it’s what i wanted on the site, but it’s on now and i hate it. really, i do. the only thing that keeps me semi-sane throughout the day is putting all my attention into the site, and the occasional snuggle with T.I. music is helping me a lot, as well, but all these are only temporary fixes.

off that subject…
how do you feel about online dating sites? i know some people that are on them, i never really asked how well it’s working for them, but i know we all have the slightest opinion about them. i’m not talking about the online booty call websites, but the people that put themselves online because they want a relationship. i always thought that if i put myself on one, some serial killer would find me and chop me up into bits and pieces, but i look at some of the people at Wal-Mart and say that as well. haha.
what is your opinion?

and you sang sail to me, sail to me.

Tuesday, January 18th, 2011

alright. it’s time for some major site changes. (:

first off, i brought back the dropdown navigation. we will see how long that lasts, as long as it works for everyone and you guys know how to navigate the site it might stay. secondly, i’m more than seriously considering dropping all my myspace stuff. layouts, contact tables, comment boxes and everything specific to myspace. i’ll keep the graphics. i don’t know what use all the layouts are sitting here on the site. it really upsets me everything myspace has done to itself over the past years. it went from truly being a good contester against facebook to trying too hard and finally slitting its own wrists to slowly watch it’s users fail to care about it anymore. it’s insane how hard myspace is trying, not even just that i logged on for old times’ sake yesterday and was astounded at how slow it was. it makes me sad to think of the summer days i spent many years ago learning how to code so i could make myspace layouts, and now here i am about to trash my hundreds of layouts because there is no point in re-learning myspace code AGAIN, because they’ll just change it as soon as you get it down, and no one cares anymore.

it appreciate feedback on deleting the myspace content, it’s a huge decision.

in other news, saturday, january 22, is the third anniversary of heath ledger’s death. a sad day. i’d like it if you all took some time out of that day to remember heath’s amazing cinema presence by simply watching one of his movies. you won’t regret it.

like heath ledger days on facebook!?
 
i created this page myself to try to spread the heath ledger love throughout the world. basically ever since heath died, i take two days out of the year to remember him by watching his movies, the day of his death, january 22, and the day of his birth, april 4. i’m simply trying to spread the idea out there to other heath fans. i know there are many of us. (: