Archive for February, 2011

roll the dice and have some faith.

Monday, February 28th, 2011

acceptance is the first step for anything. no matter what your life throws at you, or how many times people knock you down, you have to accept what has happened. the past is the past and it cannot be changed. depending on how you view your future it’s either already set for you, or you choose the path you go down; either way things aren’t going to always go according to plan. you may expect one thing and get something completely different which can be a good thing or a bad thing.

when life gets to you and starts to break you down, take a step back and learn how to breathe through it. once you finally gain your composure, it’s a grand feeling. we all need to have a way to settle ourselves, a way to keep your mental and emotional health.

knowing what you want and what you need are completely different. you’re not always going to get what you want, but you will always get what you need one way or another.

as you can tell from my previous blogs, i’ve had a rough time lately. i’ve tried to take matters into my own hands to make my life better, and when that didn’t work i stopped trying so hard, and before i realized it good things were happening. i guess i have my best friend to thank indirectly, she started beauty school so now the time i was spending with her, i’ve been spending getting to know myself. which we all should get to do, because in the long run it helps with every problem that comes your way.

basically… all i’m saying is to keep your heads up, and have faith in yourself.

remember me. don’t forget me.

Sunday, February 6th, 2011

gotta love ben kweller!

so things are slowly starting to get better, nothing has changed, but i have had more time to sort through all my thoughts of everything that’s been going on. i’m trying to keep the site updated as much as humanly possible, so there should be lots more content randomly appearing soon. i am obsessed with this layout because, to me it reminds me of the old pastel smash days, i love that feeling.

so i just wanted to touch base on a couple of things, first of all i would like to admit, and am encouraging others to admit, that i’m obsessed with supernatural, i never got into the show until a couple of months ago, and now it’s the thing i look forward to monday-friday courtesy of tnt. (: if you are a supernatural superfan, who’s your favorite character. mine has to be sam, with dean followed very closely behind.

when i first started to watch it i thought dean was my favorite, until i had a dream about hanging out with sam and dean, but instead of throwing myself all over dean, i was totally infatuated with sam. lmao. speaking of dreams, i don’t know if any of you have experienced this before, but i would to mention that last night and quite frequently i have dreams that as cinderella would say are ‘a wish your heart makes, when you’re fast asleep’.

these dreams really must be coming directly from my heart, because they are so true to what my heart knows, and what it wishes. waking up after a dream like that is instantly depressing. to have everything you want and need so perfectly presenting itself in dreamland, waking up is like you lost it all in an instant, in some cases losing at all again first in reality, then in your subconscious.

if you would like to make me smile by commenting, say whatever you like, or talk about your supernatural obsession, or even your experiences in dreamland. thanks for reading. ♥