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please speak well of me.

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

hello, my darlings! once again i wonder how life has it’s little way of hindering your plans and intentions. i never intended to be absent from blogging or the site for the past few months, but like i said life has it’s own plans!

so much has happened lately! i’ve been so incredibly busy with college and work, i don’t even know where to start! in the last blog i had just informed you i had finally found a job as a server after months of being unemployed after getting fired at McDonald’s (best thing that ever happened, lol.) i absolutely hated serving, and i was fortunate enough to get a job with my cousin that is more like a desk job, (which i love, well parts of it anyways.) for a two week period there is was working both part time jobs and going to school full time, which was simply horrible! i feel sorry for anyone who has to do something like that all the time, i had no time to sleep or study or to even do homework!

i’ve also had a rocky road going on in the personal relationship department, which for awhile there really got to me, but the fantabulous news is, i have tackled my problems head on! i feel better than i have in over a year! like i’ve mentioned twice already, life, it certainly has it’s way of getting to you! these days, though i’m so much more like i used to be, which is a great thing. i feel like that little chip on my shoulder that everyone seems to get every now and then is simply gone. i’m so much more happy and content with everything.

being happy and content is a tricky feeling though, because if you’re like me you start to wonder how long will it last. how long will it be until you find yourself back in a bad position? don’t you just want to kick those thoughts right out of your head? i know i wish i could.

i have basically decided i pretty much hate college. haha. last semester my grades were not the best, i had more academic type classes then. for the first part of the semester i had all a’s, then i had to start working two jobs while going to school full time for a two week period, and since i had no time to study or do homework i fell way behind and never really caught up, but luckily for me somehow i passed!

this semester my classes are more like electives, including a class on photoshop and wait for it… web design. my teacher for those two classes (the same guy) has no idea what he’s doing. i have to contain myself from being over dramatic about how he ‘teaches’. he will literally sit there in silence for fifteen minutes while reading the book then ‘teach’ us something for five minutes and do it all over again. even the kids in the class who have not used photoshop or have designed a web page can tell he’s got no idea what he’s doing. it’s quite frustrating.

work on the other hand is great! i actually find myself looking forward to work these days! i mean the job isn’t super glamorous or anything, but my co-workers (most of them) are amazing. i have so much fun there sometimes it almost seems criminal.


in website news, i have added a gallery to the site which is where all the retouched photos, desktop wallpapers, and blends will be kept from now on. check it out here! ♥

roll the dice and have some faith.

Monday, February 28th, 2011

acceptance is the first step for anything. no matter what your life throws at you, or how many times people knock you down, you have to accept what has happened. the past is the past and it cannot be changed. depending on how you view your future it’s either already set for you, or you choose the path you go down; either way things aren’t going to always go according to plan. you may expect one thing and get something completely different which can be a good thing or a bad thing.

when life gets to you and starts to break you down, take a step back and learn how to breathe through it. once you finally gain your composure, it’s a grand feeling. we all need to have a way to settle ourselves, a way to keep your mental and emotional health.

knowing what you want and what you need are completely different. you’re not always going to get what you want, but you will always get what you need one way or another.

as you can tell from my previous blogs, i’ve had a rough time lately. i’ve tried to take matters into my own hands to make my life better, and when that didn’t work i stopped trying so hard, and before i realized it good things were happening. i guess i have my best friend to thank indirectly, she started beauty school so now the time i was spending with her, i’ve been spending getting to know myself. which we all should get to do, because in the long run it helps with every problem that comes your way.

basically… all i’m saying is to keep your heads up, and have faith in yourself.

remember me. don’t forget me.

Sunday, February 6th, 2011

gotta love ben kweller!

so things are slowly starting to get better, nothing has changed, but i have had more time to sort through all my thoughts of everything that’s been going on. i’m trying to keep the site updated as much as humanly possible, so there should be lots more content randomly appearing soon. i am obsessed with this layout because, to me it reminds me of the old pastel smash days, i love that feeling.

so i just wanted to touch base on a couple of things, first of all i would like to admit, and am encouraging others to admit, that i’m obsessed with supernatural, i never got into the show until a couple of months ago, and now it’s the thing i look forward to monday-friday courtesy of tnt. (: if you are a supernatural superfan, who’s your favorite character. mine has to be sam, with dean followed very closely behind.

when i first started to watch it i thought dean was my favorite, until i had a dream about hanging out with sam and dean, but instead of throwing myself all over dean, i was totally infatuated with sam. lmao. speaking of dreams, i don’t know if any of you have experienced this before, but i would to mention that last night and quite frequently i have dreams that as cinderella would say are ‘a wish your heart makes, when you’re fast asleep’.

these dreams really must be coming directly from my heart, because they are so true to what my heart knows, and what it wishes. waking up after a dream like that is instantly depressing. to have everything you want and need so perfectly presenting itself in dreamland, waking up is like you lost it all in an instant, in some cases losing at all again first in reality, then in your subconscious.

if you would like to make me smile by commenting, say whatever you like, or talk about your supernatural obsession, or even your experiences in dreamland. thanks for reading. ♥

where do i go from here?

Sunday, January 23rd, 2011

Without You | Dixie Chicks

this month has been one of the worst of my semi-short life. i have lost a lot recently, i lost my boy for reasons unbeknownst to me, i lost my job, now i’m worried about losing my new kitten T.I. like i lost Gucci, I was planning on taking him to the vet this week so i can get him checked out and know he’s healthy so i don’t spend all my time worrying about losing him, too. since i lost my job the other day, i can’t because i have no money, i’m already $20 short on my car payment this month, and i only have a half a tank of gas to take me where i need to go, such as job searching. not to mention T.I. needs cat litter and is going through his cat food like there’s no tomorrow. to add to my stress, my parents and friends are on my case about taking college classes this fall. so basically i am completely stuck, i have no idea where to go from this point. to make it worse i feel like there is no one i can talk to who will actually listen and support me, i have only found one person in my 19 years on this earth that did that, and it took me 18 1/2 years to find him. now he’s gone with little to no explanation, definitely not anything that makes any sense.

now i’m so completely stressed about everything i keep making myself nauseous everyday with worry, literally. nothing seems to go right, this new layout i hate it. even after i kept it off the site for days to make sure it’s what i wanted on the site, but it’s on now and i hate it. really, i do. the only thing that keeps me semi-sane throughout the day is putting all my attention into the site, and the occasional snuggle with T.I. music is helping me a lot, as well, but all these are only temporary fixes.

off that subject…
how do you feel about online dating sites? i know some people that are on them, i never really asked how well it’s working for them, but i know we all have the slightest opinion about them. i’m not talking about the online booty call websites, but the people that put themselves online because they want a relationship. i always thought that if i put myself on one, some serial killer would find me and chop me up into bits and pieces, but i look at some of the people at Wal-Mart and say that as well. haha.
what is your opinion?

& you can have whatever you like.

Thursday, December 16th, 2010

so my birthday was sunday. it wasn’t the best birthday ever, we got like six inches of snow and my party attendance was cut it half due to the weather. not fun. i got some awesome presents though. i got a new outfit, a marilyn monroe documentary, a set of frank sinatra movies from my momma, a scentsy buddy from my sister, and some money. (:
by far the best gift i got for my birthday, not just this year, but ever was a new kitten. the amazing boy i mentioned in my last blog made it happen. one of his family friends’ cats had kittens, so i got to go with him last a week ago to pick one out. they all were black and white like gucci mane was, and one looked so similar to her i had to fight back tears when i saw it. the boy and i caught all the kittens and i went to glance at them all to decide which one i wanted. i got the cutest chubbiest little boy kitten ever. i named him T.I. (:
he’s so adorable and sweet, and he has the cutest little goatee on his chin. completely adorable, right now he his attacking my keyboard so if you find some random letters and numbers or messed up words that’s just T.I. saying hi. (:

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endless summer;

Thursday, June 10th, 2010

in this world we live in things can change by the second. this can be a good thing or a bad thing. we all have days that are just plain bad, but we also all have days that are so good you can’t stop thinking about them years down the road. it’s funny how your life can change in just one second, unknowingly you find yourself standing in front of something so unexpected, which can also be good or bad. you meet new people and though a lot of them will be people you wish you hadn’t met, there will surely be a few people who you will grow close to.

sometimes you might even find yourself falling head over heels for someone special, and the times you spend together will make the worst days good when you recall the memories you made. when you find the person that can make you smile in the worst times, keep them close. never take any time with them for granted, thank whatever mysterious force that brought you two together multiple times a day, happiness will soon follow.

wow, this was a really random blog, i wonder what has me thinking so deeply. haha.

let’s get out of the ‘love is all you need‘ portion of the blog, and into site updates. well, the past week or so has been crazy for me sitewise, i think i’ve put up like 3 new site layouts, and 60+ myspace layouts, a bunch of retouched photos and a handful of photoshop actions, and i still have a bunch more stuff i’d like to create and put up. i’m a busy bee, i guess. i’m also trying to balance work, family, friends, vacation planning, and more.  i would love to thank all of my lovely site go-ers, for commenting the last blog, and for applying to be affiliate, etc. it’s making the update process go smoothly.

liven up your day by clicking the big music link to the right, i’ve got some of my favorite songs of the moment on a playlist i would love for you to listen to, i’ve got a bit of everything rap, pop, rock. just give it a try, you might find something you like! (: