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where do i go from here?

Sunday, January 23rd, 2011

Without You | Dixie Chicks

this month has been one of the worst of my semi-short life. i have lost a lot recently, i lost my boy for reasons unbeknownst to me, i lost my job, now i’m worried about losing my new kitten T.I. like i lost Gucci, I was planning on taking him to the vet this week so i can get him checked out and know he’s healthy so i don’t spend all my time worrying about losing him, too. since i lost my job the other day, i can’t because i have no money, i’m already $20 short on my car payment this month, and i only have a half a tank of gas to take me where i need to go, such as job searching. not to mention T.I. needs cat litter and is going through his cat food like there’s no tomorrow. to add to my stress, my parents and friends are on my case about taking college classes this fall. so basically i am completely stuck, i have no idea where to go from this point. to make it worse i feel like there is no one i can talk to who will actually listen and support me, i have only found one person in my 19 years on this earth that did that, and it took me 18 1/2 years to find him. now he’s gone with little to no explanation, definitely not anything that makes any sense.

now i’m so completely stressed about everything i keep making myself nauseous everyday with worry, literally. nothing seems to go right, this new layout i hate it. even after i kept it off the site for days to make sure it’s what i wanted on the site, but it’s on now and i hate it. really, i do. the only thing that keeps me semi-sane throughout the day is putting all my attention into the site, and the occasional snuggle with T.I. music is helping me a lot, as well, but all these are only temporary fixes.

off that subject…
how do you feel about online dating sites? i know some people that are on them, i never really asked how well it’s working for them, but i know we all have the slightest opinion about them. i’m not talking about the online booty call websites, but the people that put themselves online because they want a relationship. i always thought that if i put myself on one, some serial killer would find me and chop me up into bits and pieces, but i look at some of the people at Wal-Mart and say that as well. haha.
what is your opinion?

okay, away we go.

Monday, November 29th, 2010

hello, world.
it’s been a long time since i’ve updated the site, a lot has went on. i know it seems like an excuse that i have used many times before, and a generic excuse that every other website in the world has used countless times, and i can honestly admit that at times when i’ve used said excuse before, i was really just lazy. now, i can honestly say there’s been a lot going on. life happens, and it doesn’t give you a break to sort it all out, you just have to keep going.
i will dabble in a little bit of what’s been going on, first and foremost i met a guy, he’s wonderful. second, i’ve been working roughly 40 hour weeks at ‘the arches‘, mtv give our mcdonald’s a reality show and i guarantee watchers will never be bored. drama is all there is, there’s never a day that goes by where someone isn’t enticing an engaged man, yelling, bitching, gossiping, trying to get someone fired, and other such drama. it’s hell. i’ve been taking care of my best friend, lee, while his dad is sick, making sure the kid gets to work considering no one wants to take him, and he has no car or license. i’m his surrogate mother, i love that kid. (:
i’ve also been spending time with my best friend christina and her kids, they are beautiful, sweet and joyful, they make me want to pop out a couple of my own, haha. there’s been a tremendous amount of drama with my friends from work, one quit, one broke off his engagement because he fell in love with a manager who is old enough to be his mother, who has two kids, and an ex-husband she’s still in love with, but won’t admit it. there’s been suspensions, write-ups, a virgin losing her virginity to some guy who was gay and might have aids? still unclear on the details, but i really don’t want to know them anyway.
family wise, there’s always drama there, and with the holidays here it multiplies by a thousand. someone trying to trick a pregnancy on their significant other, seperation anxieties from loved ones, medical problems and such.

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i feel drake takin’ over.

Thursday, May 20th, 2010

drake has successfully made his way into my heart, and now he’s my latest obsession. he makes me smile. lol. anyways, i just wanted to update the site with a new blog and layout, featuring drizzy drake. today was my last day of high school, it’s a weird feeling walking out of the building i’ve spent the majority of my days in the past four years, but enough of that sappy crap and more about the site. now that i’m out of school, i plan to start working extra hard on the site, and i’m announcing a new section for all the blackberry lovers: themes! i adore making themes, i make them for my phone all the time, haha. so i figured i’d bring them into the site, i figured at least a couple of people would be overly excited about this like i am. haha. i’ll also be spending the summer, going through the site and taking out all the crappy stuff and replacing it with good stuff.

i know a lot of you wonderful people have been inquiring about being affies, and i’m going to spend time replying to all of you starting sunday the 22nd, i’m sorry it’s taken so long to go through all my emails, and get to business, but that’s a thing of the past now my time will be spent dedicated to you lovely kiddos who took their time to read this. more later, maybe. (:

oh, colossal youth.

Wednesday, March 31st, 2010

Pacing slowly back and forth
I just got scolded for the worst
Thinking to myself am i to blame?
Father tells me what to do
Mother tells me how to feel
These days i wonder if i’m alive

good news, everyone. i found a way to fix the 2.0 layouts, and i plan to do so as soon as possible! more good news, i’ve decided to not completely cease making myspace stuff, after all i have what i have today because of myspace, and i truly hope myspace doesn’t fail at the epic social networking battle. so as soon as i have time, which will probably be sometime next week (spring break!) i’ll be updating the site.

i’d like to thank all of you wonderful people for sticking with pastel smash all this time. i am truly thankful, and i only have high hopes for this site and my others as well. you all are my inspiration, so keep keeping my inspired and pastel smash will always be here for you.

music recommendations for this post: neon trees, the whigs, and moonpools & caterpillars. check them out.