it’s been a long time since i’ve updated the site, a lot has went on. i know it seems like an excuse that i have used many times before, and a generic excuse that every other website in the world has used countless times, and i can honestly admit that at times when i’ve used said excuse before, i was really just lazy. now, i can honestly say there’s been a lot going on. life happens, and it doesn’t give you a break to sort it all out, you just have to keep going.
i will dabble in a little bit of what’s been going on, first and foremost i met a guy, he’s wonderful. second, i’ve been working roughly 40 hour weeks at ‘the arches‘, mtv give our mcdonald’s a reality show and i guarantee watchers will never be bored. drama is all there is, there’s never a day that goes by where someone isn’t enticing an engaged man, yelling, bitching, gossiping, trying to get someone fired, and other such drama. it’s hell. i’ve been taking care of my best friend, lee, while his dad is sick, making sure the kid gets to work considering no one wants to take him, and he has no car or license. i’m his surrogate mother, i love that kid. (:
i’ve also been spending time with my best friend christina and her kids, they are beautiful, sweet and joyful, they make me want to pop out a couple of my own, haha. there’s been a tremendous amount of drama with my friends from work, one quit, one broke off his engagement because he fell in love with a manager who is old enough to be his mother, who has two kids, and an ex-husband she’s still in love with, but won’t admit it. there’s been suspensions, write-ups, a virgin losing her virginity to some guy who was gay and might have aids? still unclear on the details, but i really don’t want to know them anyway.
family wise, there’s always drama there, and with the holidays here it multiplies by a thousand. someone trying to trick a pregnancy on their significant other, seperation anxieties from loved ones, medical problems and such.
this summer i got a kitten, i named her gucci mane bublĂ¨. when i first got her she was so scared to be away from her mother and her sisters. i felt bad for her, i wanted her to warm up to me as soon as possible so i decided to stay on the back porch with her for three days straight, we passed the time by watching old disney movies via youtube, and by the second day she was my shadow i even left my hoodie out for her to cuddle with. she was simply darling, on my first date with my new guy, i introduced the tiny little girl and his ever so witty self asked ‘does she rap?‘, maybe i’m the only one that thinks that was simply cute. the downfall to getting gucci was my older cat that i’ve had for years and years, who acted like my baby and followed me everywhere i went, cabrera ryan cabrera, didn’t enjoy having gucci around at all, and resented me for bringing her home. he wouldn’t come around me anymore and always hissed and growled at me and smacked poor little gucci.
on november 10th, i came home from work my friend lee was with me, and we were wondering where little gucci was. so we decided to go look for her, when we found her in the backyard she was dead. it was the worst day of my life, i’ve never been so upset, and i never knew anyone could cry as much as i did. it took me thirty minutes to even begin to think about moving into the house to tell my mom, i couldn’t bury her by myself, and lee who’s not good with emotion at all i might add had migrated to the porch to give me some privacy i guess. when we buried her under the tree i made sure to have gucci’s favorite songs from when we stayed on the back porch together playing, first was Me and Mrs. Jones by Michael BublĂ¨, and gucci liking that song so much is how she got michael as her baby daddy, then lemonade by gucci mane.
now that gucci is gone, cabrera is basically back to his sweet self, but it came at the cost of gucci’s life, so it’s hard to enjoy. we don’t know what happened to gucci, she didn’t get into any poison, nothing attacked her, she wasn’t sick at all, she was completely upbeat and her normal kitten self as she had been all summer and fall, i miss her sweet face.
Monday, November 29th, 2010 @ 01:45 AM.