Posts Tagged ‘kitten’

where do i go from here?

Sunday, January 23rd, 2011

Without You | Dixie Chicks

this month has been one of the worst of my semi-short life. i have lost a lot recently, i lost my boy for reasons unbeknownst to me, i lost my job, now i’m worried about losing my new kitten T.I. like i lost Gucci, I was planning on taking him to the vet this week so i can get him checked out and know he’s healthy so i don’t spend all my time worrying about losing him, too. since i lost my job the other day, i can’t because i have no money, i’m already $20 short on my car payment this month, and i only have a half a tank of gas to take me where i need to go, such as job searching. not to mention T.I. needs cat litter and is going through his cat food like there’s no tomorrow. to add to my stress, my parents and friends are on my case about taking college classes this fall. so basically i am completely stuck, i have no idea where to go from this point. to make it worse i feel like there is no one i can talk to who will actually listen and support me, i have only found one person in my 19 years on this earth that did that, and it took me 18 1/2 years to find him. now he’s gone with little to no explanation, definitely not anything that makes any sense.

now i’m so completely stressed about everything i keep making myself nauseous everyday with worry, literally. nothing seems to go right, this new layout i hate it. even after i kept it off the site for days to make sure it’s what i wanted on the site, but it’s on now and i hate it. really, i do. the only thing that keeps me semi-sane throughout the day is putting all my attention into the site, and the occasional snuggle with T.I. music is helping me a lot, as well, but all these are only temporary fixes.

off that subject…
how do you feel about online dating sites? i know some people that are on them, i never really asked how well it’s working for them, but i know we all have the slightest opinion about them. i’m not talking about the online booty call websites, but the people that put themselves online because they want a relationship. i always thought that if i put myself on one, some serial killer would find me and chop me up into bits and pieces, but i look at some of the people at Wal-Mart and say that as well. haha.
what is your opinion?

& you can have whatever you like.

Thursday, December 16th, 2010

so my birthday was sunday. it wasn’t the best birthday ever, we got like six inches of snow and my party attendance was cut it half due to the weather. not fun. i got some awesome presents though. i got a new outfit, a marilyn monroe documentary, a set of frank sinatra movies from my momma, a scentsy buddy from my sister, and some money. (:
by far the best gift i got for my birthday, not just this year, but ever was a new kitten. the amazing boy i mentioned in my last blog made it happen. one of his family friends’ cats had kittens, so i got to go with him last a week ago to pick one out. they all were black and white like gucci mane was, and one looked so similar to her i had to fight back tears when i saw it. the boy and i caught all the kittens and i went to glance at them all to decide which one i wanted. i got the cutest chubbiest little boy kitten ever. i named him T.I. (:
he’s so adorable and sweet, and he has the cutest little goatee on his chin. completely adorable, right now he his attacking my keyboard so if you find some random letters and numbers or messed up words that’s just T.I. saying hi. (:

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okay, away we go.

Monday, November 29th, 2010

hello, world.
it’s been a long time since i’ve updated the site, a lot has went on. i know it seems like an excuse that i have used many times before, and a generic excuse that every other website in the world has used countless times, and i can honestly admit that at times when i’ve used said excuse before, i was really just lazy. now, i can honestly say there’s been a lot going on. life happens, and it doesn’t give you a break to sort it all out, you just have to keep going.
i will dabble in a little bit of what’s been going on, first and foremost i met a guy, he’s wonderful. second, i’ve been working roughly 40 hour weeks at ‘the arches‘, mtv give our mcdonald’s a reality show and i guarantee watchers will never be bored. drama is all there is, there’s never a day that goes by where someone isn’t enticing an engaged man, yelling, bitching, gossiping, trying to get someone fired, and other such drama. it’s hell. i’ve been taking care of my best friend, lee, while his dad is sick, making sure the kid gets to work considering no one wants to take him, and he has no car or license. i’m his surrogate mother, i love that kid. (:
i’ve also been spending time with my best friend christina and her kids, they are beautiful, sweet and joyful, they make me want to pop out a couple of my own, haha. there’s been a tremendous amount of drama with my friends from work, one quit, one broke off his engagement because he fell in love with a manager who is old enough to be his mother, who has two kids, and an ex-husband she’s still in love with, but won’t admit it. there’s been suspensions, write-ups, a virgin losing her virginity to some guy who was gay and might have aids? still unclear on the details, but i really don’t want to know them anyway.
family wise, there’s always drama there, and with the holidays here it multiplies by a thousand. someone trying to trick a pregnancy on their significant other, seperation anxieties from loved ones, medical problems and such.

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