Posts Tagged ‘life’

please speak well of me.

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

hello, my darlings! once again i wonder how life has it’s little way of hindering your plans and intentions. i never intended to be absent from blogging or the site for the past few months, but like i said life has it’s own plans!

so much has happened lately! i’ve been so incredibly busy with college and work, i don’t even know where to start! in the last blog i had just informed you i had finally found a job as a server after months of being unemployed after getting fired at McDonald’s (best thing that ever happened, lol.) i absolutely hated serving, and i was fortunate enough to get a job with my cousin that is more like a desk job, (which i love, well parts of it anyways.) for a two week period there is was working both part time jobs and going to school full time, which was simply horrible! i feel sorry for anyone who has to do something like that all the time, i had no time to sleep or study or to even do homework!

i’ve also had a rocky road going on in the personal relationship department, which for awhile there really got to me, but the fantabulous news is, i have tackled my problems head on! i feel better than i have in over a year! like i’ve mentioned twice already, life, it certainly has it’s way of getting to you! these days, though i’m so much more like i used to be, which is a great thing. i feel like that little chip on my shoulder that everyone seems to get every now and then is simply gone. i’m so much more happy and content with everything.

being happy and content is a tricky feeling though, because if you’re like me you start to wonder how long will it last. how long will it be until you find yourself back in a bad position? don’t you just want to kick those thoughts right out of your head? i know i wish i could.

i have basically decided i pretty much hate college. haha. last semester my grades were not the best, i had more academic type classes then. for the first part of the semester i had all a’s, then i had to start working two jobs while going to school full time for a two week period, and since i had no time to study or do homework i fell way behind and never really caught up, but luckily for me somehow i passed!

this semester my classes are more like electives, including a class on photoshop and wait for it… web design. my teacher for those two classes (the same guy) has no idea what he’s doing. i have to contain myself from being over dramatic about how he ‘teaches’. he will literally sit there in silence for fifteen minutes while reading the book then ‘teach’ us something for five minutes and do it all over again. even the kids in the class who have not used photoshop or have designed a web page can tell he’s got no idea what he’s doing. it’s quite frustrating.

work on the other hand is great! i actually find myself looking forward to work these days! i mean the job isn’t super glamorous or anything, but my co-workers (most of them) are amazing. i have so much fun there sometimes it almost seems criminal.


in website news, i have added a gallery to the site which is where all the retouched photos, desktop wallpapers, and blends will be kept from now on. check it out here! ♥

roll the dice and have some faith.

Monday, February 28th, 2011

acceptance is the first step for anything. no matter what your life throws at you, or how many times people knock you down, you have to accept what has happened. the past is the past and it cannot be changed. depending on how you view your future it’s either already set for you, or you choose the path you go down; either way things aren’t going to always go according to plan. you may expect one thing and get something completely different which can be a good thing or a bad thing.

when life gets to you and starts to break you down, take a step back and learn how to breathe through it. once you finally gain your composure, it’s a grand feeling. we all need to have a way to settle ourselves, a way to keep your mental and emotional health.

knowing what you want and what you need are completely different. you’re not always going to get what you want, but you will always get what you need one way or another.

as you can tell from my previous blogs, i’ve had a rough time lately. i’ve tried to take matters into my own hands to make my life better, and when that didn’t work i stopped trying so hard, and before i realized it good things were happening. i guess i have my best friend to thank indirectly, she started beauty school so now the time i was spending with her, i’ve been spending getting to know myself. which we all should get to do, because in the long run it helps with every problem that comes your way.

basically… all i’m saying is to keep your heads up, and have faith in yourself.

okay, away we go.

Monday, November 29th, 2010

hello, world.
it’s been a long time since i’ve updated the site, a lot has went on. i know it seems like an excuse that i have used many times before, and a generic excuse that every other website in the world has used countless times, and i can honestly admit that at times when i’ve used said excuse before, i was really just lazy. now, i can honestly say there’s been a lot going on. life happens, and it doesn’t give you a break to sort it all out, you just have to keep going.
i will dabble in a little bit of what’s been going on, first and foremost i met a guy, he’s wonderful. second, i’ve been working roughly 40 hour weeks at ‘the arches‘, mtv give our mcdonald’s a reality show and i guarantee watchers will never be bored. drama is all there is, there’s never a day that goes by where someone isn’t enticing an engaged man, yelling, bitching, gossiping, trying to get someone fired, and other such drama. it’s hell. i’ve been taking care of my best friend, lee, while his dad is sick, making sure the kid gets to work considering no one wants to take him, and he has no car or license. i’m his surrogate mother, i love that kid. (:
i’ve also been spending time with my best friend christina and her kids, they are beautiful, sweet and joyful, they make me want to pop out a couple of my own, haha. there’s been a tremendous amount of drama with my friends from work, one quit, one broke off his engagement because he fell in love with a manager who is old enough to be his mother, who has two kids, and an ex-husband she’s still in love with, but won’t admit it. there’s been suspensions, write-ups, a virgin losing her virginity to some guy who was gay and might have aids? still unclear on the details, but i really don’t want to know them anyway.
family wise, there’s always drama there, and with the holidays here it multiplies by a thousand. someone trying to trick a pregnancy on their significant other, seperation anxieties from loved ones, medical problems and such.

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endless summer;

Thursday, June 10th, 2010

in this world we live in things can change by the second. this can be a good thing or a bad thing. we all have days that are just plain bad, but we also all have days that are so good you can’t stop thinking about them years down the road. it’s funny how your life can change in just one second, unknowingly you find yourself standing in front of something so unexpected, which can also be good or bad. you meet new people and though a lot of them will be people you wish you hadn’t met, there will surely be a few people who you will grow close to.

sometimes you might even find yourself falling head over heels for someone special, and the times you spend together will make the worst days good when you recall the memories you made. when you find the person that can make you smile in the worst times, keep them close. never take any time with them for granted, thank whatever mysterious force that brought you two together multiple times a day, happiness will soon follow.

wow, this was a really random blog, i wonder what has me thinking so deeply. haha.

let’s get out of the ‘love is all you need‘ portion of the blog, and into site updates. well, the past week or so has been crazy for me sitewise, i think i’ve put up like 3 new site layouts, and 60+ myspace layouts, a bunch of retouched photos and a handful of photoshop actions, and i still have a bunch more stuff i’d like to create and put up. i’m a busy bee, i guess. i’m also trying to balance work, family, friends, vacation planning, and more.  i would love to thank all of my lovely site go-ers, for commenting the last blog, and for applying to be affiliate, etc. it’s making the update process go smoothly.

liven up your day by clicking the big music link to the right, i’ve got some of my favorite songs of the moment on a playlist i would love for you to listen to, i’ve got a bit of everything rap, pop, rock. just give it a try, you might find something you like! (:

myspace is dead.

Sunday, February 21st, 2010

it has happened, it’s been in the making a long time, but myspace is dead. facebook is the superior social network, sure there are the masses that refuse to give facebook it’s chance, because they think it’s too complicated, but soon enough they’ll become addicted, and myspace will deteriorate. it’s going to happen, like it or not. it’s the end of an era, and the beginning of another.

this is the precise reason i’ve lost any will to update, especially when it comes to layouts, from now on it’s going to be mostly resources and graphics, little to no layouts. it’s just not worth the hustle and bustle, it really takes up too much time, time that could be spent working, hanging with my friends or family, just enjoying my youth in general.

i still hope myspace gets its groove back, but as of now facebook is superior in every aspect especially the accessibility, ease, and speed. it takes 20 minutes to tag a friend on your picture on myspace, but on facebook it takes 20 seconds, yes i am exaggerating a bit, but oh well. it’s true enough.

myspace still trumps facebook as far as customizations and music, but i assume that could change soon enough. facebook could easily add customizations, just as myspace could step it up and actually try to compete with facebook in its many superior aspects.

if myspace comes back to life, i’ll be back with layouts and insane updates, as far as now it will be graphics and resource updates whenever a surge of inspiration strikes.

for the time being, get a facebook!